You know that you’re adulting, especially as starter, when you came with the fam for a vacation but leaves earlier because you’ve got work. Although you’re late, you went to office anyway. Hahaha. It wasn’t as if you really had a choice since you’ll be off next week.

But travelling alone is one of my “idea list” so it was still an awesome two hour ride to work.

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Spontaneous is my family name

Embracing my fam’s normal ways – an adventure filled with spontaneity.

Yesterday, I was out of my “normal Saturday routine”. My family planned to go for hot springs. I asked my pastor for a ministry leave for the family bonding.

Here’s the plan: Go to a town in the south and relax in a hot spring. We hit the road, drove kilometers away from home, and when we arrived in town only then did I discover that we don’t have a specific place to stay. My instinct was to panic and find a solution at the same time. But, I was calmed as I remember I am not in charge.

So instead of ruining that day, I decided to sit back, obey (while intensely praying in my inner most being that my mom and sister knew what they’re doing or desperately crying out for God’s miraculous mercy and wisdom!) and see how God unfold his plan and lead us to the next step.

Thank God, we arrived safely at a resort with a room that’s cool with a mini pool in it.

Adulting

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In life, transitions are inevitable. Leaving a season means entering another. As a fresh graduate, the changes seemed minimal until I stepped into my first 3 months.

Indeed, “adulting” is both exciting and difficult journey. The bills are just part of the bigger responsibility put on the shoulders of a young adult.

Deadlines are still there, not with papers waiting to be graded, but with projects anticipating results or, oftentimes, sales. I still study, yet, with no scheduled class or compulsory curriculum.

However, amidst all the challenges of “adulting” I remain confident as Jesus said…

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

Parents’ Call

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I’m 20 years old, college graduate, lover and follower of Jesus, dessertarian, NBSB (no boy fried since birth), imperfect.

I had never been into a committed boy-girl type of relationship but there were times when I almost made that mistake. Thank God for His love is greater than my stubbornness. But my stand on that matter was funny. I am a traditional type of girl and have this idealistic level of standard.

Grade school. I need to finish high school before entering into a relationship
High school. My mom won’t allow me. I promised to her and to myself that I am not going to have a boy friend until I finish high school
College. My ideal guy was unsearchable. Then, I have had a serious relationship with the Lord. I want to wait for God’s man, His timing, and undergo His process before receiving the gift – my better half.

Now. I work in the church. I have seen and heard about families torn apart because of parents giving up to the struggles of life, losing against temptation, and, the saddest thing of all, going to the battle unprepared.

Unfortunately, my family isn’t an exemption. I also struggle and fight for my family. But often times, warriors get tired too. I never expect us to be perfect but “trying” is okay.

After all of the things I see, hear and experience, a constant revelation keeps ringing in my heart:

Parenthood is a calling. It’s not just about feeding your children, clothing them, giving them shelter. There’s more to that!

It is saying “yes” before God and taking on the responsibility to raise up a child with the fear of the Lord, with the love not just with words and train them to be kind and Christ-like in this world.

It is showing them, instead of just telling them, the virtues we uphold. It is standing with confidence that what they say is true even when no one is watching.

It is building a HOME instead of just a HOUSE.

I can’t help but to raise the standard higher.

To my future children (physically and spiritually),

I love you. I know I’m not going to be a perfect mother. But I want to love them, love them too much to carefully consider them and not give in to my desires, to allow God to take me to that process so that I’ll be ready to nurture you well, to dare to dream big dreams so I can tell you someday that you can have yours too and to rest and be assured of my identity in the Lord as His child. My prayer is that God use me to love, help, equip and guide you to be the person God called you to be. I will not give up on you. 

“faith in humanity” destroyed?

My heart was troubled upon seeing my friend (who’s a Christian) replied to a shared blog with the caption “faith in humanity destroyed… again” The blog was narrating a murder of a student where witnesses ignored the victim, not offering him any help. I know it’s not bad and I will not justify their lack of care. But the thing that worried me was the comment:

“…I do think the word just and humane does not exist anymore in real life.” with a reply “exactly. just, morality, humane  these words just don’t exist here…”

Wait a second, does this mean no one is just anymore, no one has morals, no one does humane things? What about us? What about genuine followers of Christ? What about these friends of mine?

Okay, maybe I’m over reacting. But isn’t God good, just, merciful and loving? And doesn’t He still exist today? It means there’s still justice and goodness in this world. It doesn’t go extinct.

But…I suddenly thought, should we put our faith on humanity? Looking back at our history, should we trust humans’ natural moral compass?

I don’t know but one thing I no is for sure: we can rely on God and He has given us His Holy Spirit to direct our path. That’s why today, I pray for an open eyes to see God’s love and goodness in this planet, an open ears to hear his direction and an open heart & hand to be God’s representative to every people I come across with.

What about, how can you bring a message of love and hope to the people?

I Was…

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It nearly drive me crazy seeing a friend, being online at the same time, even crossing on each other’s eyes but acting like we never knew each other. Like all the laughter, the sorrow, the victories, the deepest secrets shared, every moment spent together and even those times we thought of each other was NOTHING.

But after all that happened, I still believe that God has a great plan for the both of us. I’m not sure what’s His plan. Whether we will stay this way forever or we’ll be reconciled, I don’t know, but I am sure that whatever it maybe, it is the BEST EVER! I am so excited as God continues to unfold His plans for my life and ministry.

Am I sad because this happened? Yes, I was.

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No, because today I am learning
to trust and depend on God with every part of me, with no reservation,

to find joy in everything that I do
to enjoy every second I have with every person I met
to focus on what really matters
to wait on God’s timing, especially with love
and to value my relationship with the Lord above anything else.

As I think of it now, I lost someone I love and very dear to me but I found myself in the everlasting arms of my Heavenly Father, my #1 Pursuer, my friend, my protector, my Savior, my Lord, my lover from the very beginning, He who still loves me NO MATTER WHAT, and my everything – God!

Thank you Jesus!!