When love came down

The Christian walk isn’t always sunny.

Last week I had a not so okay week where almost everything around seemed to be collapsing, but I needed to look okay. But I never stopped praying. I find it funny as I realized how irrational my prayer was in that desperate moment. I know I’m not too far, but I know there’s more – more to dig deeper. I know there is! There must be! I just don’t know how to go there.

An unexpected appointment.

What to do when you had an appointment, but your meeting mate hadn’t shown up? I attended our 2nd morning worship service to hear our senior pastor so I can write something for the recap of the series on Tuesday.

Worship time came, and I was there just crying (literally) whether the song was fast or slow, not caring what others (including my leaders) think, just pouring out my heart to my Father. Then I thought, who could I come to and ask for help? I know I MUST be accountable to my leaders, and this is not a valid excuse, but the last time I opened up truthfully to a someone, it did not go well. I thought of a friend from Singapore who has been a mother to me. I thought maybe she could help me. But the fear of this personal issue reaching my boss was unbearable. I asked God what I should do and pleaded could He send someone. Surprisingly, we had a guest speaker from Singapore!

A familiar voice.

Our guest pastor talked about “The Heart of a True Worshiper.” Then I laughed to myself and said, of course, I should worship. I know I needed the Holy Spirit. I know that I had deprived myself of drawing near to His living water and presence. Altar call came, and no one went to the front. I felt the Holy Spirit calling me to admit my need for Him, but I had three reasons not to go:

  1. I’m sitting in the middle of the row
  2. I’m wearing high heels
  3. What would my leaders think of me?

But one reason made me go to the altar – because GOD CALLED ME AND HE IS ALL I NEED.
I came in front, praising Him, crying, speaking in tongues, and God impressed in my heart: “I love you this much! I canceled your appointment so I could meet you. I made this man stop by your church to remind you that you are my child. I have even come down to show you that I love you, and I am the God with you. I came down, took the cross, died, and resurrected. But I never abandoned you nor I ever will. The Holy Spirit came who wants to live in you, have fellowship with you, and love you. I have come down to that deepest pit you’re stuck with and rescued you because I love you, my daughter.”

Thank you, Jesus!

The Due Process


Political Science is one of the subjects that I don’t enjoy, probably because I dislike my professor. As far as I could remember, he is a graduate of Bachelor of Science in Accountancy, but after failing the Board Exam, he studied Bachelor of Science in Public Administration. He also has a master’s degree in Public Administration. But despite all of these, our class turns out to be a “reading class.” I mean READING CLASS because he will JUST READ the content of the chapter for our meeting. His out-of-the-topic discussion also irritates most of my classmates.

By the way, this blog isn’t all about my professor I want to say why I am bored with this subject. I thought the near end of the semester would lead to an unhappy ending between my PolScie (as we call it) subject and me. But I was wrong! Because “for the first time in forever, ♫♪♪” a topic discussed by my Prof. piques my attention! The chapter was entitled “FILIPINO CITIZENS AND THEIR RIGHTS.” I know it’s weird because a lot of people see it as a simple and ordinary topic. And yes, I am weird 🙂

Multitudes of the rights we’re stated and listed in the BILL OF RIGHTS, a part of the Philippine Constitution found in Article III. You might probably hear about the law which hears before it condemns, which proceeds upon inquiry and renders judgment only after trial. It is called the DUE PROCESS OF LAW.

Does God hear before he condemns? Is it the same law that God uses? If yes, how unfortunate we are!

God knows everything about us – who we are, where we are, what we have done and what we do, what is in our hearts and mind, what struggles we are into, what victories we have, everything! He has full knowledge of our past, present, and our future. Does He care about our prayers? With billions of people praying to Him, can He hear my prayer? The answer is Yes! Even God knows everything, and He still enjoys the time you allot in communicating with Him during your prayer time. Whatever situation you have, remember that God LISTENS.

Similar to the “Due Process,” God listens. But He does not condemn! Why is the accused given a chance to hear his side and defense against the accusation? It is for the judge to know to examine the statements and pieces of evidence of both parties for him to make a just judgment. But like what I said earlier, God knows everything about us even before we tell him. Why didn’t He release his judgment after knowing what we had done? Why? Because Jesus condemns no one!

It is clearly stated in

Romans 8:1
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus

There was an adulterous woman in John 8:1-11 who was brought to Jesus. The people were ready to stone her to death, but Jesus said: “let anyone of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” And as the scripture told us, no one stoned her, and Jesus said: “Then neither do I condemn you.”

This is the due process presented by Christ. He listens carefully to every word we say even He knew it already. And after your confession, He will not condemn you but would instead forgive you of your sins if you ask for it. Because, in the first place, it is the main purpose of Jesus being sent here to earth – to save us from our sins!

John 3:17For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him.

And the last part of the process was the same words Jesus told the adulterous woman in John 8, Go now and leave your life of sin.”