When love came down


Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows.
But take heart, because I have overcome the world.
John 16:33 NLT

Christian walk isn’t always sunny.
Last week I had a not so okay week where almost everything around be seemed to be collapsing but I needed to look okay. But I never stopped praying. I find it funny as I realized how irrational my prayer was in that desperate moment. I know I’m not too far, but I know there’s more – more to dig deeper. I know there is! There must be! I just don’t know how to go there.

An unexpected appointment.
What to do when you had an appointment but your meeting mate hadn’t showed up? I attended our 2nd morning worship service to hear our senior pastor so I can write something for the recap of the series on Tuesday.

Worship time came and I was there just crying (literally) whether the song was fast or slow not caring what others (including my leaders think) just pouring out my heart to my Father. Then I thought, who could I come to and ask for help? I know I MUST be accountable to my leaders and this is not a valid excuse but the last time I opened up truthfully to a someone it did not go well. I thought of a friend from Singapore who has been a mother to me. I thought maybe she could help me. But the fear of this personal issue reaching my boss was unbearable. I asked God what should I do and pleaded could He send someone. Surprisingly, we had a guest speaker from Singapore!

A familiar voice.
Our guest pastor talked about “The Heart of a True Worshiper”. Then I laughed to myself and said, of course, I should worship. I know I needed the Holy Spirit. I know that I had deprived myself of drawing near to His living water and presence.

Altar call came and no one came to the front. I felt the Holy Spirit calling me to admit my need for Him but I had 3 reasons not to go:
1. I’m sitting in the middle of the row
2. I’m wearing high heels
3. What would my leaders think of me?

But one reason made me go to the altar – because GOD CALLED ME AND HE IS ALL I NEED.

I came in front, praising Him, crying, speaking in tongues and God impressed in my heart:

“I love you this much! I canceled your appointment so I could meet you. I made this man to stop by your church to remind you that you are my child. I have even come down to show you that I love you and I am the God with you. I came down, took the cross, died and resurrected. But I never abandoned you nor I ever will. The Holy Spirit came who wants to live in you, have fellowship with you and love you. I have come down to that deepest pit you’re stuck with and rescued you because I love you my daughter.”

Thank you Jesus!